'Akhirnya paling serius' sudah, lalu 'setelahnya paling serius' apa?
Skripsi adalah perjalanan paling mengurasi emosi dan tenaga sepanjang 22 tahun kehidupanku.
Dosbing lama dengan revisinya yang menuju tak terbatas dan melampauinya.
Pandemi yang memacetkan arus dan mengobrak-abrik alur.
Anjing yang meninggal saat aku sedang sayang-sayangnya.
Uang uang uang uang lalu bekerja ala mahasiswa pada umumnya. Sebetulnya sudah umum, tapi itu sungguh di luar dugaan dan rencana. Akibat bayang-bayang kekayaan masa lampau.
Muzizat pergantian dosbing.
Twitter yang penuh dengan sambat sampai dengan tulus merasa bersalah dan malu.
Merenungi jumlah langkah aku tertinggal dari sebayaku yang sudah lulus lalu bekerja.
Menjadi sangsi akan kepintaran. Ternyata aku bodoh.
Setiap hari membuat-buat pembenaran diri agar tetap waras.
Aku tetap tidak tahu apa yang ku tulis dalam 70 lebih halaman itu.
It's early this year because I want to post this the same day with Spotify Wrapped which is out today (ok, yesterday because I can't finish writing the post on time)! I'd made my own nominations yesterday (2 days ago) to compare with Spotify so the rankings will be more objective and data based LOL (cry in undergraduate thesis).
Some of the songs from my Spotify Wrapped aren't 2020 releases so I'll need to exclude them. Also, I don't always listen to music from Spotify, sometimes I listen more from JOOX/YouTube so the Spotify Wrapped is only a comparison.
Songs of the year aren't only songs I listened the most (on repeat, which I think is Spotify Wrapped's way of judgement) but also about the meaning, songs that describe this year the most for me; songs that are basically the OSTs of my life.
Just like last year's, I'll make Top 10 (that usually consists of more than 10 songs duh), honorable mentions (good songs I don't listen too often), and 2019/older songs I still listen a lot. I will add a new category: 2020 discovery, that will consist of new music (singers, songs, albums, genres) I find this year and grow to love <3
Without further due, let's get it~!
10. Sejeong - Whale
My healing song, a song that helps me going through so many upsetting moments this year. Sejeong won my heart back after forgetting her since IOI disbanded. Whalemakes me want to try again, keep pushing forward, and believe life will get better. The chorus feels like saying goodbye to our sad days, a start of something new. I always feel hopeful and a lil bit more cheerful after listening to Whale, not to mention Sejeong's soulful voice. This year my fav soloists like HyunA, Sunmi, and Chungha don't release anything that suit my liking so re-finding Sejeong is such a God-gift.
Another happy-go-lucky song of 2020. I've been following SF9 since their debut but not really stanning because sometimes I'm head over heels for their songs like Easy Love, Now or Never, and Good Guy but hate RPM, O Sole Mio, and MAMMA MIA. Thankfully, this year they release Summer Breezethat hit all the right spots in my ears. Every lines are sung beautifully by each members, there are many catchy killing parts, and the performances are good too (they can sing live).
My favorite from all the good OSTs of Hospital Playlist! You Alwaysis a song I always run to whenever I need a booster for my mood. It's like an ice cream, sweet and addicting. Being Hospital Playlist OST, listening to it brings back memories of the drama, so many memorable scenes, warm and touching. I can't wait for the Season 2 OSTs!
Another happy song by such a happy band consists of crazy guys LOL. N.Flying is a band I grew fond of since 2019 with their hit song Rooftopbut this year I dig deeper into their amazing discography. I find myself liking their cheerful songs more than the sad ones, somehow the opposite of Day6. Actually their song that made into my Spotify Wrapped big 10 is It's Fine, but it was released last year so I choose Oh Really instead. Oh Really is a fun song to have fun with, it's one of the song I never skip on my playlist because I know it will be fun!
This song turned me into a Goldenness, my fandom of the year (I'm a multifandom). Lately is not a title-track but it sure has the potential (wasted, lol). What stands out the most for me when I first listened to it is Golden Child's vocals! It's insane that Lately has quite a fair line-distribution because it's a vocal-heavy song. Only Golden Child can do that for sure, they have a solid vocal line, 6/10 of them can pass as main vocalist.
Oh, Lately is my #1 most played song on Spotify Wrapped! Yeah, I replayed it so much because I was obsessed with Joochan's vocal duh :") it's so beautiful... Also, Lately kinda sounds like Infinite's songs (they're from the same agency, Woolim Entertainment). I stopped listening to it when my dear dog died, because I used to listen to it with her... but these days I've managed to listen to it again without crying.
I remember re-discovering ONF last year with We Must Love and Why, this year they also have awesome releases: New World and Sukhumvit Swimming. I really really love their music, the EDM touch and overall uniqueness. Hoping 2021 will be their year.
5. Everglow - LA DI DA
What I love about LA DI DA is the emphasize on vocal, Everglow past title-tracks used to have EDM chorus which are good, I love Dun Dun but I still like it more when singers sing.LA DI DA also has mesmerizing choreography and the live performances are very enjoyable, I love everything about the song.
This year I listen more badass, girl-crush songs rather than cutesy ones but it also because there weren't much good cutesy songs. Oh My Girl's Nonstop and Dolphin aren't my jams. We can't possibly call IZ*ONE - Secret Story of The Swanas cute, right? I love love that song!! I don't want them to disband T_T
If in the beginning of this post I said, "OST of my life", SLUMP is THAT song. Wait, okay all the songs in this list are but SLUMP is like the main OST, maybe the OST when an episode ends with cliffhanger, the credits are being played continued by next ep's preview. The background music when the conflicts are getting to climax. LOL. Like the lyrics are crazy, it describes my life drama perfectly haha...
Stray Kids have an amazing journey in 2020. They release bops after bops with no pause. More than SLUMP, I actually listen to Levanter more. That song is... sad but hopeful but was released last year so yeah... and of course I jam religiously to God's Menu and Back Door. Please keep making bops, 3racha <3
3. Hoppipolla - Enough
It calms the storm beneath my skin. Enough is very peaceful and heavenly. Hoppipolla helps me getting through my worst days in 2019 and 2020 and I believe in the upcoming years too. Ha Hyunsang's voice is so healing, it's like a drug but also like an angel's.
2. Day6 - Afraid
For the big 2, I don't have much to say. This year is extra. It's unlike every other years I've ever lived. I also have to work on my final thesis so yeah, I listen A LOT to Afraid because I'm almost always afraid 24/7. I need to project that emotions and feelings. I cry a lot listening to this. I scream a lot singing to this. It's crazy how much this song helps. Thank you, Sungjin <3
1. IU - Eight (prod. SUGA)
Nothing compares to the feelings I get when I first listened to Eight. I was happy, sad, and every other things. My heart felt like it was going to explode because it couldn't contain and process all the feelings. It became even more relatable and close to my heart after my dog died...
"So are you happy now?" is a question I ask myself almost on a daily basis and I want to cry everytime because I don't know the answer. The confusion is perfect to describe 2020. So many things happened and didn't happen. So many things changed and remained the same.
2019 and older Songs on Repeat:
ATEEZ's songs LOL (esp Say My Name, Wave, and Promise)
Day6 Entropy album (esp Not Fine, Not Mine, and Like a Flowing Wind)
JJ Project - Tomorrow, Today
Taeyeon - Fine
Zico - Human
Super Junior D&E - Growing Pains
Jonghyun - End of a Day (cover by Crush)
TXT - Our Summer
2020 Discovery:
Baek Yerin
Han Yo Han
Official HigeDandism
Rina Sawayama
Paul Kim
Crush
Sandeul B1A4
Stella Jang
notes: discovery doesn't really mean I just came to know them this year, I already knew some of them for long but in 2020 they finally release music that suit my ears so I became very invested, interested, sometimes obsessed and turned into a fan LOL *which means maybe next year they'll make into my top 10 <3
Life's been... really really hard. I've cried everyday for more than 3 weeks now. But I'm fine, I cope well.
I watch Harry Potter for the 1st time in my life, read fanfictions about Draco and Hermione, watch lighter korean dramas instead of the heavy ones, I cry instead of bottle it up inside, I seek out for helps from my friends instead of isolating myself, I also don't hide too much from my family although I badly want to.
I listen to any kind of music instead of just the sad ones. I eat, I do skincare and even haircare. I work. I work on my thesis. I do so much better than I thought I could that night when she died.
My beloved dog, Cathy, passed away 3 weeks ago. It was the most heartbreaking, depressing, and any bad words happened in 2020 among all the bad stuffs. I won't talk in details but... it sure changed me. I learned a lot, especially about how strong I am as a human.
I still face breakdowns, suicidal thoughts, self-harm idea, constant self-blaming, blah blah blah but I notice this is so much better than who I was before. Maybe it's slow. Maybe it's not spotlight worthy. But at least, I myself can acknowledge it. I'm 100% conscious about what I experienced.
All credits are for God though I don't directly come to Him.
Hey, it's been quite long not writing here. But I guess you're my forever safe space, a place I can write whatever without the fears of being judged. I have a difficult day, all I wanna do is sleep but yeah I can't. I took a nap but what I want is 12+ hours of sleep. It's impossible to do at home with my parents there. By the way I hate this blogger's new interface, the fonts are so small.
I contacted my thesis supervisor this afternoon after gathered all my courage but like he always did, he let me down. He's easy to contact, always fast responding but his responses... are discouraging. I feel like all my prayers, effort to be hopeful again, meditations, and sleepless nights went in vain the second I read his response. Will I ever g r a d u a t e ?
Yesterday I incidentally read mom's chats with sis. She asked her to remind me frequently about my thesis, specifically to contact my supervisor regularly. So I did, but look what happened. He told me to held a fxxxing FGD in the midst of pandemic?! Which just another way to say: wait until the vaccine is found then you can continue your research. Even a field observations are still prohibited by the uni, how the hell I can held a FGD? Yes maybe I can but it really goes against my morals and principles. I'm not Anies Baswedan.
Moreover, the FGD is needed to gather all the stakeholders to finish their conflicts which... is not the purpose I'm doing my thesis? Like, it's not that I don't care about Pasar Papringan but, who am I to intrude? I don't think I have the right to finish their problems? I just want to finish my study?!?! Not someone else's problems?
Isn't it LOGICAL, REASONABLE, WISE, COOL, AND SOLUTIVE to do online research in this kind of situation? Why can't him let me do that? Why is he so unhelpful? Why is he my supervisor?
Now tell me, which way I should go next... ah, the privilege to have a supportive supervisor :")
Aku berkawan akrab dengan nelayan sejak Natal yang lalu, tidak dalam arti yang sebenarnya, penyakit batuk dan sakit tenggorokan yang tak kunjung pergi ini membuatku harus selalu menyediakan permen "Fisherman's Friend" di tas, pertolongan pertama jika batuk tidak mau berhenti karena tenggorokan terasa gatal. Berteman dengan nelayan ternyata cukup bermanfaat, sekarang aku jadi suka minum madu gara-gara rasa permen yang "honey lemon" ternyata sangat enak! Aku juga jadi lebih sedikit mengonsumsi makanan ringan, bye bye kalori berlebih...
Hari ini aku sedang duduk santai di dekat jendela besar belakang meja kerjaku di kantor (aku sedang magang di Spedagi Movement, NGO yang kuteliti untuk skripsi) sambil menggulir timeline Twitter dan melihat sahabat terkerenku Putal me-retweet sebuah artikel Magdelene tentang (tentu saja) feminisme, saat kemudian otakku yang gemar bekerja secara random menayangkan suatu informasi dari masa lampau: dulu aku pernah terpikir, kenapa Putal tidak ingin menjadi penulis padahal dia seorang kutu buku berat dan tulisan-tulisannya bagus. Memikirkan itu membuatku teringat juga dengan jawaban Tepani, sahabat asrama terproduktif, ketika kutanya apakah dia berniat menjadikan menulis sebagai karir, Tepani menjawab 'tidak'. Selanjutnya pikiranku mengembara pada tugas-tugas magang yang membuatku mengalami stres terpendam: stres yang tidak terlihat di permukaan tetapi sebenarnya sangat merongrong kedamaian jiwaku sampai-sampai tidak bisa tidur padahal, tugas magangku adalah MENULIS! Ya ampun... Otomatis aku juga jadi tersadar bahwa; kalau aku memang suka dan ingin jadi penulis, harusnya aku tidak malas-malasan menulis skripsi.
Ya, lagi-lagi hidupku sungguh patut dipertanyakan...
Setelah selesai bersantuy di dekat jendela, aku kembali mengerjakan tugas dan tanggung jawabku ketika sebentar kemudian Pak Singgih, founder Spedagi Movement, bertanya,
"Kamu memang dari dulu tertarik kerja di kota kecil?"
Iya Pak
"Kenapa? Kan jarang ada orang yang seperti itu."
Ehm... lebih tenang aja Pak, tingkat stresnya lebih rendah.
Ya, aku tidak berbohong sih, itu memang salah satu alasannya. Tentu ada alasan-alasan lain, yang merupakan perenungan tak berujungku sejak semester 1; aku pengen kerja di Temanggung/Magelang aja, karena ya... emangnya sukses harus di kota besar? Terus orang yang sukses di kota kecil disebutnya apa? Emang ga ada orang gagal di kota besar? Sukses dan gaji besar tapi nggak bahagia, apa gunanya? Iya sih pasti ada banyak orang yang sukses dan bahagia di kota besar tapi emang aku harus pengen kayak gitu juga? Pasti ada juga sih orang yang gagal dan depresi di kota kecil, yang nyesel ga merantau juga banyak. Tapi... tapi despite it all aku nggak pengen hidup di kota besar. Aku mau mengabdi pada dua kota yang membesarkanku, mau dekat dengan orangtua dan nenek, dan segenap tetangga yang menemaniku tumbuh... Boleh, kan?
Mungkin yang perlu aku lakukan sekarang dan ke depan adalah melakukan yang terbaik yang aku bisa, menunjukkan bahwa aku bisa berhasil walau tidak di kota besar. Ngomong-ngomong soal melakukan yang terbaik, kayanya aku harus jujur bahwa aku jarang banget melakukannya. Efek kekecewaan masa lalu yang masih membekas (aku pernah melakukan yang terbaik dan gagal). Sekarang aku malah biasa melakukan yang terbaik buat hal-hal yang 'receh' atau hanya untuk sesuatu yang aku sukai. Misal, aku niat banget kalau bikin instastories: edit di tiga atau lebih aplikasi, bahkan pake acara revisi! Bikin artjournal juga niat banget. Latian padus juga I do my best. Meanwhile di hal-hal lain yang sebenarnya adalah tanggung jawab utamaku, aku malah males-malesan: skripsi, nyiapin portofolio buat cari kerja, cari murid les, ngebantu ortu, dan merawat diri. Aku bahkan pernah membahasakan sikapku ini kayak gini; "my life is priority spelled backward."
Kayak, if the result is unclear, I hesitate to do my best. But I want to stop this toxic trait. I want to change, I want to be a better version of me. I want to do my best in everything without hesitation... Because today, after finishing my presentation and discussion with Pak Singgih, I finally realized what I want to do;
Aku pengen tetep di Temanggung; ngajar Bahasa Inggris atau lanjut di sini di Spedagi, terus buka usaha catering sama Mama di rumah, merealisasikan "brownies in the besek", dan menjual keripik talas kemasan kertas... sambil jadi penulis lepas, aktif pelayanan di gereja, dll dll dll~~~
Yay! Finally got the time to make this VIP (Very Important Post). Let's skip the intro and get right to the list!!!
Uhm no, some intro is still needed:
There will be 10 songs that are released on 2019, and then I will mention some songs released before 2019 but I'm still loving them this year, plus some honorable mentions of 2019 songs (dedicated for songs I don't listen often but are actually very good)
Okay now LET'S GET IT~!!!
10. Red Velvet - Umpah Umpah
Remember the old saying (of me LOL)? If I love a song so much I will learn the dance, Umpah Umpah is dat song this year. I discovered this song quite late because it was released when I was away in the inland of Central Sulawesi doing my community service program. But rite after coming back to Yogyakarta, I listened to it and BAAM~ it's such a good song! It got the Disney vibes (HSM vibes too I guess). Such a fun and happy song <3 RED indeed! Favorite release from RV after... Bad Boy? The chorus is the best part, it builds up from the pre-chorus that's kinda slow, the chorus starts as fun, and then there's the epic high note, then the 'umpah-umpah' part! Love it! The dance is also SOMETHING UNFORGETTABLE~
9. ITZY - ICY/ MAMAMOO - Gogobebe
These songs are both my jam~ the kinda of song that make you want to move your body and feel 100% better. Also, both groups are my GIRL CRUSHES! Their concepts scream STRONG, DIFFERENT, CONFIDENT and INDEPENDENT! Fun fact about ICY: I love the song because of a Kpop Kardio LOL, thanks for helping me burn calories, gurls~ and I love Gogobebe because it's a catchy song, it's also fun to sing in the noraebang with friends!
8. Chungha - Gotta Go/Snapping & Sunmi - LALALAY
QUEENS! Guess 2019 is the year of self discovery where I discover the badass side of me WKWKWK (wut/iz/diz). But really, if you remember my preferences for girl songs used to be for the cutesy ones like A Pink, Oh My Girl and From_is. It's not that I don't like them anymore sih, they just happened to not release anything match my taste this year. Gotta Go has amazing and iconic choreo, and I love the post-chorus MOST! I personally think the song would be so much better if the post-chorus is repeated again in the end (where there's only long instrument and chorus). It would hit more right if the post-chorus played after the instrument.
As for Snapping, I fell for the song because of the lyrics, I found myself obsessed over "Doesn't matter what you baby hate or love" and the choreo, the performance, everything is so dope in this song! Chungha is definitely the most successful Produce series alumni!
Sunmi! Not a fan of Noir but LALALAY slays hard! Again, I fell for the song because of the choreo. Sunmi's charisma is also very attractive in LALALAY. Also when it comes to soloist like Hyuna, Sunmi and Chungha, I really love their interaction with the back dancers! :") Not related but Seulgi would make a very good soloist if SM debuts her with strong concept like Hyuna/Sunmi/BoA/Chungha, not vocally like Taeyeon/IU. Wendy matches the latter more.
7. NIKI - Lowkey
Thanks to my friend from the Felis catus species to introduce me this song. The acoustic version is the one I like most. Such a nice song to sing along~ with the raps, the repetitive lyrics, feel-good melodies~ NIKI is a rising queen for sure! Note that 2019 is also the year where I no longer put big concern on lyrics, I mean, I used to love songs mostly for its relatable lyrics, I would hate those I can't relate to. But I obviously can't relate with 'Lowkey' lyrics kkk~
6. (G)I-DLE - Lion
Another queen! I was skeptical with them since the rumor (it's confirmed tho) of Hui and Soojin dating in the past. As a BIG fan of Hui and he was facing the departure of E'dawn, his group mate, I disliked the fact that he was dragged into another 'problem'. I also only liked LATATA and HAN, their first two songs and not rly a fan of Uh Oh and Senorita. At first when Lion was released on Queendom, I didn't even bother to listen to it just because~ but then the bop was played in a Korean event I attended last month and someone was dancing to it and BAAM~! I automatically thought, "I NEED TO LEARN DAT DANCE!" the lion and crown choreos are epic!
So it happened, I listen to the song every fxxxin day... it's so good, Soyeon is a genius and Soojin has strong stage presence, now I stan her tho I hate her before LOL. Prove of how good she is that she can turn a hater into a fan~
5. Honne - Location Unknown / Lauv ft. Troye Sivan - I'm so tired
Please note that I only love both songs for the particular 'session'. For Location Unknown it's the Brooklyn one and for I'm So Tired it's the LA one. I forget which one appeared first on my Youtube recommendation early this year, but one song led me to the other one. Ah! These two are possibly the only songs I like for the relatable lyrics this 2019, especially I'm So Tired. Troye and Lauv voices are also very good! The emotions they put for the song are also remarkable, it traveled all the way from LA into my heart. I especially love the LA version because it's more emotional and have a special part, my favorite part, "Somebody cover up my ears~ somebody save me from my heart, somebody take me out from here and rip the speakers off my car. 'Cause I'm ready to love ya~ and I'm ready to lose ya'~ but I can't wait here any longer~~"
Location Unknown is actually not relatable as a whole song but some parts are relatable af, example, "I don't care how long it takes I know you'll be worth the wait". That lyrics make me hopeful about my future. My love for the song decreased when it went viral here in Indonesia because of Gempi LOL.
Both songs are also in the regular bathroom concert playlist this year! Ha!
4. BTS - Make It Right
A song that make me love BTS again. A song that I love so much I even made a post just for it! WKWKWK...
The song is so Lauv style but turned out it wasn't him composing. For me, this song smoothly delivers BTS' feelings for ARMY. The lyrics are touching and pure :") The members' vocals also amazed me (again), maybe it's also because of their sincerities. Make It Right deserves all the remix LOL, it's such a good song!
3. SHAUN - Bad Habits
WISH I COULD LET YOU GO~~~
Loved the song for that particular lyrics, stayed for the overtune near the end of the song! I don't really understand how but it's December and when I look back, I can't deny I listen to Bad Habits almost on daily basis without going bored and always anticipating the beat drop in the end~ Maybe it's also Shaun's voice. It's beautiful~
2. NCT Dream - BOOM
THIS IS HOW YOU MAKE A COMEBACK!
NCT Dream first comeback without Mark Lee was worrisome for me but turned out BOOM! Jeno, Jaemin, Haechan, Renjun, Chenle, and Jisung proved they're just fine (if not better wkwkw) without their beloved leader. I normally disliked shift of concepts, more when it's from cute/fresh/youthful to sexy/mature/bold but BOOM is an exception. NCT released some songs this year but this one is my fav, guess Dream is really the superior unit kkkk~ the choreo is also very pleasing to watch! Their performance is lit. Jeno isn't my fav member but his stage behaviour and facial expressions are mad in this comeback, mad respect to him as well. Jisung's voice in the last chorus and Jaemin's "ice cream". Ah, I'm a spoiled noona for such good bop~
1. ATEEZ - Wave
MY ULTIMATE JAM OF THE YEAR!!!!!!
- don't know which video to insert because everything is so gud -
For this comeback, they released two songs for fans to choose which one to promote. I haven't started to stan them back then so I was kunfused, I listened first to Illusion and the just ignored it, minutes later the song rang in my brain which meant I liked it but forgot the title so I just randomly clicked on Wave MV and got even more kunfused because it was a different song BUT ALSO VERY GOOD!?!?!?!
Wave is the song that made me put my eyes on ATEEZ, heard them since their debut but I was uninterested because their first songs are more on the dark side (Pirate Kings, Hala Hala, Say My Name) and I quickly judged them as being generic (BTS, Big Bang, Monsta X, iKON) but Wave with its bright concept (it's a summer song) made me fell in love. It's such a happy song, a moodbooster, the choreo and performance are also legit, their style, expressions, everything! What's amazing is that the whole album is a treasure! It's their third mini-album "Treasure Ep. 1: One To All", with Illusion and Wave as title tracks, and there are other songs: Utopia (MY FAV!), Aurora, and Dancing Like Butterfly Wings. Every damn songs are BOPS and very uplifting. I love them, my album of the year (I literally played the whole mini-album almost everyday). ATEEZ also performed every songs and the choreos are <3333
The song that made me officially an Atiny is Wonderland tho, their latest comeback. They went back to their bold side but now I stan! LOL. I hope they will release another summer mini-album next year!!! Every year, if they could :3
YAY! It's sad not to have some familiar names on the list :") Block B, iKON, and Day6 are regulars on the list but Block B doesn't release anything this year, iKON got a problem... and I'm just not really into Day6 happier songs LOL. I actually still listen to Day6 a lot like OF COURSE! but more to their old songs or b-tracks (the sad ones). Now let's get to that list:
Songs I listen a lot in 2019 but released in different year:
1. Day6 - Somehow
2. The Rose - Like We Used To
3. Taeyeon - Fine
4. Sunmi - Siren
5. Ben - 180 degree
6. Adhitia Sofyan - Blue Sky Collapse
7. I won't mention some songs because they're basically my all time fav songs, the six above maybe will be included to that category next year~
Honorable mentions (for 2019 songs that I don't listen often but are good):
1. Day6 - Sweet Chaos
2. SuperM - Jopping
3. WayV - Moonwalk
4. Oh My Girl - The Fifth Season
5. AOA - Come See Me
6. Stray Kids - MIROH (uh oh should've put this on big 10)
7. will add when I get the idea
Aku tidak sedang mengalami writer's block, aku hanya rendah diri, bukan hanya di dunia kepenulisan tapi di segala aspek kehidupan; aku merasa inferior.
Sudah setahun sejak tulisan pertama yang aku setor ke IGNITE GKI, setahun sejak aku kenal Kak Adis dan menjadikannya panutan, tapi hidupku masih di sini-sini saja. Entah apa progres yang berhasil dicapai selain menjadi lebih bahagia...
Rasanya aku selalu jadi kura-kura ketika bicara progres menuju kesuksesan dan kemapanan. Lamban, pelan, terseok, dan tertinggal... Lebih parah lagi, aku bahkan tidak punya mimpi. Kalau orang-orang punya mimpi setinggi Nam Joohyuk (188cm), mimpiku hanya setinggi Jisung NCT saat masuk jadi trainee di SM (145cm).
Tadi sore aku membaca kicauan terbaru Ardhito Pramono di Twitter, kalau bisa aku pengen menyerahkan jiwaku yang sudah sehat kembali ini untuk dia dan menerima jiwa sad darinya. Biar dia menjadi pribadi yang sukses sekaligus bahagia sementara aku gagal dan sedih. Lebih cocok dan sinkron bukan?
Woi Fan, kok sambat terus sih :")
Aku bingung antara mengerjakan apa yang ada di depan mataku atau mengejar yang jauh di depan atau melakukan keduanya bersamaan...
Tuhan, hari depan penuh pengharapan yang Engkau janjikan itu seperti apa sih?
Hari depan itu bahkan belum terjadi tapi apa yang aku lihat dan alami saat ini sudah membuatku berkecil hati...
Semalam lagi-lagi aku berteori seperti ini; "Buat beberapa orang love comes easily, tapi enggak buat aku dan beberapa lainnya."
Kalau dirasa-rasakan, waktu berjalan begitu lambat untuk memperpendek jarak antara aku dan jodohku tetapi begitu cepat mendekatkan aku dengan hal-hal yang aku takuti. Itu 'kalau dirasa-rasakan' sih. Kalau dijalani dengan rileks dan hati yang bersyukur, banyak hal jadi lebih indah dan terasa mudah; karena hati kita ringan, tidak kita tambahi berbagai beban yang tidak perlu seperti ketakutan, keraguan, keluhan, asumsi, dan pesimisme.
Jadi, ya sudah deh, tidak jadi sambat tentang hari depannya... Toh aku sadar aku memang belum maksimal mempersiapkan diri dan berusaha untuk hari depan yang lebih baik itu. Semangat, kawan~
Lemme present y'all my 2019 best k-drama: BE MELODRAMATIC! <3 But nah, not gonna review it, just recommending it because when the title is 'be melodramatic' it taught us so much, we're gonna be happier in a melodramatic way WKWKWKW (spoiler: the main couple is kinda annoying, watch for the secondary couple(sss) one of the character has schizophrenia and she's such a badass, + Gongmyung is a sweet puppy)
The writer-nim likes to throw random life lessons here and there throughout the drama :") Like this one:
Ya, kita hanya perlu untuk bertahan dan semua akan baik-baik saja, bertahan bukan berarti berdiam diri. Bertahan dan lakukan sebisa kita, jangan menyerah, sesulit apapun, bertahanlah. Katanya, semesta selalu jatuh cinta pada hati yang keras kepala... Jika setiap kali dikecewakan kita tetap tegak berdiri, semesta akan luluh pada akhirnya.
Aku sedang lelah saat menulis ini, hari-hariku terasa pendek tapi padat. Dua hari ini tidurku tidak nyenyak, was-was menunggu pagi datang dan tenggat waktu menuju pengumpulan proposal skripsi makin dekat. Stres sekali. Banyak pula hal lain yang harus diurus. Ingin ambruk dan menangis (sudah sih tadi, gara-gara Kunto Aji dan Pilu Membiru Experience-nya) tapi aku tau dan percaya ada Kekuatan yang lebih dari sekadar kemampuanku. Bertahanlah sampai subuh hari Jumat, lalu kita kumpulkan proposal itu pukul 9 pagi di meja Mbak Sekar, setelah itu beristirahatlah...
Bertahanlah, dengan bertahan kita mempertahankan kemungkinan hal-hal indah yang mungkin akan terjadi agar tetap bisa terjadi, karena kita masih melanjutkan hidup... Beri peluang untuk keajaiban atau bahkan fairytale untuk bisa terjadi, pertahankan peluang itu dengan bertahan.
Lelah bukan pertanda untuk menyerah. Lelah berarti dua hal: istirahat atau tetap kerjakan dengan lebih banyak berserah. Semangat bertahan hidup untuk mempertahankan hidup yang indah, Fani... <3
Not a big fan of Lauv, also not a fan of his duet with Troye Sivan, but IMMA BIGGEST FAN OF THE STRIPPED - LIVE IN LA VERSION! LOL!!!
Awal Make It Right keluar, tentu saja aku ga dengerin lah ya... kan keluar pertama ga langsung sama Lauv kan ya... Nah terus mulai tergoda buat dengerin tuh pas keluar yang versi feat Lauv. Sehari tahan. Dua hari tahan. Akhirnya di hari ke tiga (keknya) udah ga bisa menahan rasa kepo dan terputarlah MV nya dan BAAM~! "DUH KOK BAGUS AMAT LAGUNYA"
Terus mendadak nostalgia gitu sama BTS... zaman-zaman mereka masih fetus, ketika aku masih seorang ARMY~~~
Mengapa aku sempat menjadi bukan seorang ARMY?
Karena aku seorang MULTIFANDOM yay! Nggak, nggak, tidak se-shallow itu, saudara-saudara... Aku memang multifandom, yang memang seharusnya tidak layak menyandang status nama fandom tertentu karena derajat pengabdian seorang multifandom yang (umumnya) lebih rendah dibanding yang tidak multifandom haha. *Digampar anak multi lainnya **ya ampun udah lama ga nulis pake gaya beginian ***jangan cringe, please
Well, aku sadar bahwa sesungguhnya nggak penting juga lah ya alasan aku bukan ARMY atau fakta bahwa aku multifandom atau apalah! Emang aku siapa? Iya kan... tapi ya udah, aku pemilik blog ini dan kok POSTINGANKU YANG PALING BANYAK DIBACA ADALAH YANG BERKAITAN SAMA KOREA HAHA :"D ya udah deh, coba ditekuni aja, nulis topik lainnya ntar bisa pindah lapak.
Nah oke kita flashback dikit dulu ya guys ke zaman aku masih SMP, eh, lebih tepatnya era pre-debut BTS!
Kyaaaaaaaaaaaa! Video ini! Haha! Sangat nostalgic!
Video di atas adalah video BTS pertama yang aku tonton dan membuatku SANGAT ANTUSIAS MENANTI DEBUT MEREKA! Sederhananya; dulu aku ARMY guys, ARMY garis keras sama seperti adik-adik sekalian yang teriak-teriak tiap MV baru rilis, hafal rap-nya Suga, sampe dance cover aja aku jabanin! Gila ga? Dance BTS cuk yang susah itu aku PERNAH bisa!
Terus kenapa sunbae nggak jadi ARMY lagi? Apa salah BTS Oppadeul? *jiji sendiri w ngetiknya
Karena memang seperti itulah nature seorang Multifandom sejati, saranghaneunhoobaedeul... Lebih tepat disebut nature-ku sih, prinsip yang kupegang sejak menjadi fangirl adalah:
"Kalau suatu idol udah 'gede', udah dapet nama, berarti time to say goodbye, udah saatnya kita cari bayi-bayi lain untuk didukung sampai sukses!"
Nggak bener-bener say goodbye, sih, tapi udah nggak fanatik lagi aja... Fanatik versiku tuh: nonton semua video mereka (MV, fancam, iklan, variety, dll etc), hafal ultah/tinggi badan/berat badan/golongan darah/semua tentangnya, bantu dapet award, hafal lirik/dance, mempelajari teori-teori, baca fanfic/imagine/halu, dan semua kegiatan fangirl bucin lainnya.
Jadi, kira-kira semenjak era I NEED YOU, aku mulai mundur alon-alon dari dunia per-ARMY-an. Bisa dibilang, tepat saat mereka mulai hit big *bighit dibalik apaan dah* ya mulai tenar gitu lah ya... Terakhir fangirlingan berat sama mereka itu pas Dope rilis, gila emang tuh lagu, masih menjadi lagu BTS terfavoritku sampai sekarang, ini nih yang aku bisa dance-nya WKWKWK. Kesimpulannya, aku menjadi ARMY tulen sepanjang 2013-2015.
Nah terus aku mundur alon-alon dan sempet jadi 'semacam' ga suka sama BTS, why?
*puter musik melankolis biar lebih dapet feel-nya, nih sekalian promosi lagu terbaru Day6
"BTS sudah terlalu besar dan tidak butuh dukunganku lagi sebagai fans," ini pemikiranku di tahun 2015-2017 tiap kali pengen ng-ARMY lagi. Di saat-saat itu, populasi ARMY mulai meningkat pesat dan sorry to say, some are toxic, umm, lebih ke childish sih daripada toksik. Fanwar sama EXO-L juga di mana-mana, sering banget trending di Twitter! Di kolom komentar YouTube keknya juga sering. Bener-bener masa kelam per-Kpop-an untuk aku yang sudah lama hidup dalam kedamaian dunia multifandom. Gapapa guys, yang lalu biarlah berlalu.
Mulai tahun lalu, aku beberapa kali ngobrol sama temen-temenku para ARMY, baik yang udah lama suka Kpop juga, maupun yang mulai nyemplung Kpop gara-gara BTS. Kami banyak bertukar pikiran dan pendapat. Mereka cerita betapa BTS membuat hidup mereka berwarna dan bermakna, kalau BTS itu 'beda', how they taught people about self-love, ada juga teman yang bisa melalui mental illness nya karena BTS, gimana BTS tuh ga takut jadi diri-sendiri, ga palsu, dll. I agree(d) and I knew that... BTS emang beda, mereka spesial, nggak ada grup lain yang seperti mereka, kalau pun sekarang ada ya itu karena BTS lah pionirnya. BTS ga takut buat menjadi vulnerable. Mereka apa-adanya, ga takut ngomongin dan nunjukin kelemahan mereka baik lewat karya maupun ngomong secara langsung. Persahabatan mereka juga udah terbukti begitu erat dan kuat tanpa dibuat-buat, ditambah lagi mereka memulai semuanya dari 0, dari perusahaan kecil hingga sekarang mereka adalah global idol.
Nah ini nih cikal bakal 'ketoksikan'...
BTS membuat standar kesuksesan sebuah grup Kpop menjadi lebih tinggi lagi. Katakanlah sebelum BTS, salah satu tolok ukur kesuksesan sebuah grup Kpop (khususnya boyband ya karena lagi ngomonginnya BTS) adalah BIGBANG. Buat bisa dibilang sukses setidaknya harus bisa menyamai/mendekati pencapaian BIGBANG: bikin lagu sendiri, lagu selalu masuk tangga lagu, kalau perlu jadi song of the year. Nah sejak BTS meraih kesuksesan yang luar biasa yaitu menjadi global idol, itulah yang menjadi parameter kesuksesan boyband-boyband lain. Kalau belum mencapai taraf global idol, berarti masih kurang sukses.
Standar ini menurutku, membuat perjuangan banyak grup jadi semakin berat. Yang bikin aku paling sedih adalah NCT :") SM seolah maksa banget buat menandingi BTS tapi dengan cara yang kurang tepat. Jujur sebagai NCTzen aku ga tega sama anak-anak NCT. They're good as themselves, ga perlu maksa jadi global idol atau go international... Emang sih ini alasan yang bodoh buat sempat ga menyukai BTS, mereka sukses kan bukan kesalahan, kalau terus standar kesuksesan jadi naik dan banyak grup jadi harus struggle more, itu juga bukan kesalahan. Hatiku aja yang suka sensitif ga tegaan wkwkwkwk :"D
Dan akhirnya... aku kembali!
Bener-bener deh lagu ini sesuai banget sama judulnya, make it right, membuat kecintaanku ke BTS jadi right lagi wkwkwkwk...
Aku masih tetep NCTzen, masih tetep khawatir tiap SM melakukan usaha-usaha absurd buat mereka, tapi ya sudah... tetap kudukung, sembari berharap kalau anak-anak NCT menikmati itu semua. Semoga mereka baik-baik saja, semoga mereka ga akan mengalami yang Jonghyun dan Sulli alami...
Kalau kamu ngebaca ini dan kamu ARMY, tolong dukung NCT juga ya :)
Hai guys! I have an important information for y'all: I ruined my own blogger template (theme?) and it stressed me quite a lot. Well, I'm stressed about so many other things too, just thankfully I'm better at managing it now.
I come here and finally decided to write despite the ugliness of my blog looks rn because I came to a realization:
Why am I worrying TOO MUCH? Come on Fan...
So yeah, these days I've been busy thinking about my future, what I need to do to 'prepare' myself for it. I put a lot of pressure to myself to start making my writing 'career' (I want myself to start writing in various channels like Medium, Wattpad, Quora, everywhere, I want to self-brand myself as a writer lol, lame huh?)
And dude, isn't it somehow depressing? Ahaha... It is.
It's true indeed that I need to prepare myself for the future, for the... career, job opportunities, start making money even, yeah... adulting. But it's honestly saddening how everything seem and feel so forced, do I really need to do this? Is this the right way to be an adult?
The never ending "what if..."s, not to mention the comparison game... looking at people my age who are already achieving stuffs I can only imagine having... Oh, please, stop.
Does it have to be this... sad?
Does adulting really have to feel like waving goodbye to good old days?
Am I bad at it if I don't follow some standards?
Is there even any rule to be an adult? You have to do this, stop doing this, etc etc?
Is money everything?
Why is it that instead of exciting, it's starting to be kinda... terrifying?
Diksi Membaca adalah sesuatu yang nikmat untuk dilakukan. Ia adalah salah satu katarsis ketidakwarasan. Namun belakangan ini aku bukan pembaca yang sabar, tak terhitung lagi berapa kali aku meninggalkan bacaan di tengah jalan enggan merampungkan. Semua yang kubaca entah itu novel, artikel di situs, caption Instagram, sampai chat WA, seolah menanyakan hal yang sama,
"Kamu sedang membaca tulisan, kamu bisa nggak nulis kayak gini?" atau terkadang sedikit dengan bumbu 'nyinyir' seperti ini,
"Mana yang katanya suka nulis? Mana yang katanya mau jadi penulis?" Pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu kubalas dengan sebuah alasan, "Aku benci diksiku."
Ya, aku benci pemilihan kataku. Aku selalu merasa tulisan-tulisanku membosankan dengan diksi yang diulang-ulang. Kemudian saat aku membaca tulisan orang lain, aku merasa rendah diri. Semakin aku rendah diri, semakin aku enggan menulis. Semakin aku enggan menulis, semakin aku terhantui saat membaca. Dan siklus itu terus berputar mengkerdilkan aku dan mimpiku.
Inikah yang disebut "menggali liang kubur sendiri"?
Krisis Seperempat Kehidupan
Bukan negara ini saja yang sedang dilanda krisis, kami para "98 liners" nampaknya juga sedang menghadapi krisis yang sama: krisis seperempat kehidupan alias quarter life crisis, aren't we guys?
Isi otak di tiga minggu terakhir ini tak pernah jauh dari K E K H A W A T I R A N . . .
Skripsi gimana?
Besok mau kerja apa?
UGM tapi kok gini sih...
Duh temen-temen kayanya lebih bla bla bla deh...
Belum pernah menghasilkan uang sendiri ya...
Duh harus hemat!
Duh udah mau 21 tahun tapi masih kusam dan tidak glow up
Gendut :((((
Pengen update outfit...
Kok belum pernah travelling ke sana sini ya?
Belum pernah nonton konser Kpop
D U H ! Ngapain aja sih aku selama ini?!?!?!
Nulis?!
Beli buku?!
ARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Tidak ingin menyesali keputusan di masa lalu tapi kok... kok gini doang ya hidupku? :) Eh tapi iya kah 'gini doang'? Apa sih parameter 'gini doang'? Bukannya asal masih hidup, sehat, bisa makan, tidur enak, punya orang yang sayang sama kita, itu udah cukup ya?
Tapi kalau aku seperti ini terus... apakah aku akan bisa lulus tepat waktu?
Beberapa orang yang ingin menghibur orang lain akan berkata, "Tidak ada yang namanya lulus tepat waktu, karena waktu yang tepat bagi setiap orang berbeda-beda."
Ah bullshit
Lalu apa definisi "tepat waktu" bagimu sendiri, Fan?
Tidak terlambat... tidak sampai ada orang yang mempertanyakan kenapa aku belum lulus.
Parametermu orang lain ya?
Iya...
dan ego... dan gengsi...
Iya...
tapi?
Tapi aku sedih harus bekerja dengan dorongan tiga hal itu, sebegitunya kah aku?
kamu pengennya?
Pengennya ya semangat karena punya tujuan bukan tekanan... berjuang karena keinginan diri-sendiri bukan ekspektasi orang lain... dan melakukan itu dengan rendah hati tanpa peduli ego dan gengsi.
kamu selalu sadar diri kalau kamu sombong...
Iya...
tapi keras kepala untuk tetap sombong...
Iya...karena sombong itu mudah, rendah hati yang sulit
Oke sekarang gimana kalau kita ubah cara berpikirnya? Kita fokus pada usaha mengesampingkan ego dan gengsi, tidak usah pakai diksi 'sombong' dan 'rendah hati'.
Boleh...
Oke kita lihat ya sampai postingan selanjutnya, dah!
You taught me how to love more properly, not from a distance but closely To fall into actions and not words from the ways you treat me so carefully You made me wonder how you feel or do you notice the small things I do But baby you're so lovely and charming everybody can't help but falling too They shower you with abundant loves your stupid brain doesn't know what to do All I want to make sure is if you're okay where you are right now because no matter who ends up with you I'm fine with it As long as you're happy I'm happy as well :) I love you, from the deepest part of my heart even though temporarily and not until eternity, I can guarantee this is love thank you...
Hai dunia! Fani sepertinya sudah kembali menjadi dirinya yang biasanya. Akhirnya. Setelah berhari-hari aneh dan merasa asing, bertanya-tanya, "Ini aku bukan sih?" Aftermath KKN cukup parah mempengaruhi hidupku dua minggu belakangan. Syukurlah aku masih manusia karena masih sanggup beradaptasi, walau memakan banyak waktu. Bagaimanapun 50 hari memang bukan waktu yang singkat kan? Bukan hal yang terlalu aneh kalau aku kesulitan menyesuaikan diri setelah kembali ke 'peradaban'. Sampai-sampai aku terus menunda untuk menulis tentang kisah KKN-ku karena menunggu hati cukup kuat.
Semuanya terlalu indah dan 50 hari terasa begitu cepat berlalu karena mereka bertujuh; dari kiri belakang ada aku, Nita, Henny, Ely, dan Lala, depan dari kiri juga ada Arvin, Fadel, dan Ario.
Kesimpulan yang aku tarik dari tidak banyak obrolan dengan teman-teman yang juga baru menyelesaikan KKN: ngegap adalah kunci WKWKWKW... Pas mereka aku ceritain betapa ngegapnya aku dan teman-teman subunitku, mereka malah bilang, "Lebih seru kayak gitu Fan!" Hehe, puji Tuhan kalau begitu...
Sebenarnya aku sering merasa bersalah dengan gap yang terjadi ini tapi ya sudahlah, sudah berlalu, lagipula semua bahagia seolah tidak ada gap apa-apa haha...
Entah sampai kapan D'Pogandas akan tetap bersama, sejauh ini kami masih sedikit-sedikit berbagi kabar di grup WA dan wacana main masih menjadi wacana, tapi tak apa, apapun yang terjadi nantinya, mereka tetap satu bagian super indah dalam kehidupanku <3 Terima kasih sudah hadir dan mewarnai 50 hari KKN yang kukira tidak akan seindah itu guys! Sayang pol sama kalian :")
Tidak ada peran ibu-ayah atau sejenisnya di D'Pogandas, kami semua setaraf: teman -- teman yang entah bagaimana cocok saja kepribadian, selera humor, sampai selera julidnya WKWKWK. Tidak ada yang terlalu menggurui karena jauh lebih dewasa dan sebaliknya tidak ada juga yang terlalu manja karena belum dewasa. Kami benar-benar seirama dan setara, saling jaga dan bercanda.
Salah satu slogan kami adalah, "Emangnya kita ngapa-ngapain harus berdelapan ya?", sebuah pertanyaan yang aku lontarkan karena heran kenapa kami ke mana-mana dan melakukan apa-apa hampir selalu harus bersama-sama seperti serombongan bebek. Kalau ga salah pas itu kami ada yang mau ngeprint dan bikin materi di laptop, gensetan di rumahku, eh semuanya ikut, yang ga ada kepentingan juga ikut WKWKWKWK... aku yang lagi capek abis pulang dari Abason auto nyeletuk, "Emangnya kita ngapa-ngapain haru berdelapan ya?" karena heran liat Arvin yang sama-sama dari Abason keliatan capek tapi bukannya tidur di Papa Kadus malah ngintil ke Papa Natan. Terus disahut sama Lala, "IYA." WKWKWKW dasar kita...
Setiap ada kejadian apapun yang berbahaya kami semua auto panik, bukan memikirkan diri-sendiri tapi keselamatan satu sama lain. Yang paling aku ingat adalah saat Fadel gatel sampe makannya cepet banget dan udah keliatan ga nyaman gitu, terus abis makan dia langsung ke kamar, kami cepet-cepet abisin makan sambil teriakin nanya dia kenapa, selesai makan kami buru-buru melihat keadaan Fadel di kamar. Lala ngecek kulitnya, Ario nyuruh Henny ambil CTM, Nita sama Ely lari ke rumah ambil caladin, aku doa di depan pintu. LOL. Arvin seperti biasa lagi dinas ke Salakan.
Lagu-lagu yang sering kita nyanyikan
Terima kasih kepada ukulele pink coral milik Nita yang sudah menceriakan hari-hari kita di Poganda. Dari pagi sampai malam, kita isi jeda-jeda waktu kosong dengan bersenandung riang. Beberapa lagu paling mainstream yaitu:
- Waktu Yang Salah (favorit Totok)
- Cinta Beda Agama
- Kangen
- Dia
- Dua lagunya Virgoun
- Manusia Bodoh
- Can't Help Falling in Love
- Perfect
Kita sempat ingin mengadakan tribut untuk band-band tertentu tapi kemudian gagal karena ingat-ingat lupa dengan lagu-lagunya WKWKWKWK... Misalnya Peterpan, Radja, Kangen Band, dan ST12. Nggilani emang selera musik kita *kecuali Ario.
Senam
Terima kasih kepada Totok alias Henny yang sudah mengadakan program senam sehat setiap Jumat. Berkat program inilah kita semua teracuni demam Kaka Enda dan Nona Peling. Dua senam legend yang tak akan terlupa! Setiap Jumat aku tak pernah merasa kekurangan serotonin wkwkwk...
Momen yang nggak akan terlupa adalah pas malam perpisahan di Poganda, setelah lelah berdero sampai sekitar jam 2 lewat, Papa Hasran (our infrastruktur senam HAHA) sampe udah ganti kaos, kami mengakhiri kegiatan joget hari itu dengan ONE LAST KAKA ENDA X NONA PELING.
Anjir sih... pas itu aku baru aja duduk setelah capek dero ronde kesekian, diputer musik Kaka Enda, aku auto bangkit dan gabung ke barisan. Begitu masuk ke lirik langsung nangis! Senam sambil nangis dan nangisnya tuh yang sakit dari hati gitu lho. It was one of my best moment, really! Karena aku pribadi emang suka banget sama dua senam ini WKWKWKKW... bikin bahagia woy T_T *tau sendiri lah, aku susah bahagia. Papa Hasran juga keliatan emosional banget huhu...
Sampe di Jogja aku udah dua kali senam sendiri di kamar HAHA
Oiya apalagi liriknya Nona Peling ter-FAV
Sa so berlayar jauh dari Taliabu~ mau bilang cinta tapi sa pe hati ragu
EA BANGET SIH DASAR LIRIK...
Alang-alang! It was one of our most hectic day ever: couo-couo pergi ke Leme-leme buat pasang baliho (yang ada foto artis Bangkepnya tu lho) dan ciui-ciui sibuk memangkas alang-alang dari deket Buka Layo (ini barusan mikir keras lupa nama tempatnya). Seperti biasa aku sebagai ceue sok kuat tentu saja tidak mau memakai manset maupun latex, sehingga sekujur tangan-kaki-bahkan muka dan leher penuh baretan yang pedis, loro cuk. Terus kita sampe malem berjibaku berdelapan (+ Papa Yongki our hero, Papa Mail our craftsman) bikin huruf-huruf buat gapura. Teras rumah Kadus udah penuh alang-alang, sampe masuk-masuk ke rumah dan kamar couo. Lelah, akhirnya kami berdelapan berakhir di atas springbed biru penuh peer; cosplay alang-alang, begitu istilah kerennya WKKWKW... Literally delapan manusia di atas kasur yang sama. Dasar kita.
Triple T (Trip to Tatendeng)
Perjalanan ke Tatendeng bakal jadi salah satu yang paling nggak terlupa!!! Pagi, aku sama Fadel ngurusin takraw di Luk, lainnya ada cek kesehatan di baldus. Pertandingan takraw pagi itu penuh dengan drama dan perselisihan *lol, kemudian usai sekitar jam 11. Cepat-cepat kami berdua balik ke Poganda karena udah ditunggu Papa Kadus. Sampai di 'rumah', sudah ada Papa-Mama-Parel dan Arvin (yang nungguin Lala). Kami berangkat duluan karena so ditunggu sejak pagi di Tatendeng. Mbonceng Fadel di jalanan yang asing dan berkelok dan ada yang lagi dibenerin adalah sebuah kengerian di siang hari -_- but at least we got to talk about life, a little, good to hear some of his stories.
Yang paling berharga dari kunjungan ke Tatendeng adalah ketemu dan berkenalan dengan Pak Maleso! Beliau ini katanya adalah ensiklopedia Banggai Kepulauan, he knows everything! Seru banget dengerin Pak Maleso cerita ngalor ngidul sampe ngalor lagi tentang sejarah Bangkep <333 Ga cuma sejarah, beliau juga adalah seorang pemerhati lingkungan khususnya burung-burung dan satwa yang ada di Gunung Kokolomboi.
Senang juga akhirnya kami punya foto berdelapan yang cukup proper :D
dikagetin lalu terkejut mari lanjut...
PPK - Para Pemburu Kepompong
CPC - Calon Plang Cebol
Anti Misogynist Misogynist Club!
FSS - Festival Sea Sea
BKM - Budak Kelapa Muda
SBT - Senja Bersama Terakhir
PRHI - Pilu Rasanya Hati Ini
Ini apaan sih kenapa penulisnya nggak niat!?
Udahan aja lah yang nulis kalau ga niat!
Oke bye~
PDSMT - Pulang Dengan Semua Moda Transportasi OIYA! After Movie Ala-ala(kadarnya)
